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The Duality in Life

Do you ever notice the duality in life? Not from a deeply philosophical, sit-under-a-tree-and-rethink-existence kind of lens. I mean from the vaguest, most everyday lens possible. The kind that sneaks up on you in those oddly specific contradictions you carry around. Lately, I’ve been thinking about this a lot, and to be honest, it has made me so much more self-aware. Take the most basic example: me. In general, I do think I’m an empathetic and kind person. Yes, yes, I know, very noble of me to say that about myself...I’ve clearly been attending narcissism 101. But morally, I do believe judging people is wrong. And yet, I judge. Sometimes on the most absurd, unnecessary, almost diabolically unserious things. My mind just seems to run on some mysterious fuel that I did not approve of. And that, to me, is one of the simplest forms of duality. There is the person I believe myself to be, and then there is the person my mind occasionally reveals in fragments. The interesting part, though...
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Cinema and Life

Have you ever watched a movie or a show and thought, “Wait… this is literally meee!” ? Because l ately, I’ve been rewatching Little Things , and the female protagonist, Kavya, feels illegally similar to me. At this point, I’m tempted to email the writers and ask where they got their reference material from. Because I do not remember signing any consent form. Anyways, jokes apart, it genuinely made me pause and think -  Do we choose characters we relate to, or do they quietly choose us? Like, what if the first time I watched Little Things , Kavya stayed with me longer than I realised? What if she settled somewhere in my subconscious, and now when I rewatch the show, I don’t just relate ... I recognise. Of course, I still have my individuality. Main koi photocopy nahi hoon . But subconsciously… koi chemical locha toh nahi ho raha na? Because yea, personalities don’t form overnight. And maybe movies and shows contribute more to that process than we like to admit.  I think a hu...
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Point of Views

“Excellence ke peeche bhago, success jhak mar ke tumhare peeche aa jayegi.” ~ Funsuk Wangdu  This quote has always been a core part of what keeps me going, and honestly, it’s a huge reason I even wrote this blog. I know, looking at the title, it might sound random, but bear with me — there’s context coming. So, my first college internals just ended. They went decent enough , but yesterday I got my math marks back. Not bad overall, but I made one extremely silly mistake...I literally forgot to divide my final answer by 2. My evaluator cut 4 marks for that. Anguished and full of emotions, I called up my brother. He had an exam in the next 15 minutes, but he still picked up and patiently listened to my rant: “I can’t take this anymore! Why isn’t this pattern changing? Why does something always go wrong at the end? It’s not about the marks! it’s about the pattern ! How am I supposed to let this go if it keeps repeating?” He just laughed softly and said, “It’s always going to be that ...
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Unbound, yet homebound :)

A few weeks ago, while leaving the theatre with watery eyes after watching Homebound , I felt this strange numbness — like my thoughts were racing but my heart had slowed down. The Oscar-worthy direction, cinematography, and acting, of course, added layers to the experience. But what really struck a chord with me was the film’s central theme: “ Unbound, yet homebound friendship. ” Now that college has begun — new faces, new routines, the slow unlearning of comfort — this theme feels even closer to me. The number of times I’ve listened to “Yaar Mere – From Homebound” is honestly unhealthy (lol). But every time it plays, it pulls me back to that moment in the theatre — and to every friend who’s ever felt like home. Friendship, I’ve realised, is the most unbound relationship of all. How long ago you met, how long it’s been since you last spoke — none of it matters when someone makes you feel like yourself again. That comfort, that quiet knowing, that shared language of inside jok...
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Why?

With the interim of all these Indian festivities going on, I’ve been having some quiet pondering sessions about spirituality, religion, and traditional customs. I thought I’d share a glimpse of what’s been going on in my mind. And yes, I’m pretty open-minded, so all opinions are welcome — but slide into the DMs for that part haha! 1. The Generational “Why?” Let me start with something my dad said in a chat, quite a while ago. Back in the day, say during my great-grandparents’ time, questioning traditions wasn’t really the norm. They probably never asked why certain customs existed; they just followed them with obedience. Of course, there must have been exceptions — otherwise, societal progress would’ve been impossible. My grandparents' generation, though still somewhat hesitant, started to stand against practices that didn’t align with their moral compass. My parents then took it further — they discontinued or altered a few customs they found suppressive. But the real shift is in...
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"Do you want it or do you need it?"

As a kid, every time I asked for something, my mother would always pause and ask, "Do you want it or do you need it?"  Little innocent Sukhda never imagined that this simple question was actually my first lesson in understanding the concept of desire. Back then, I didn’t fully grasp what she meant—but the question lingered. As I grew older, this question turned into a profound confusion. I began to ask myself: What exactly is a want, and what is a need? Because, if I looked at my life practically, I had everything I needed—a loving family, good friends, a solid education, a square meal every day, and a comfortable shelter over my head.  So, what more could I possibly need? And more importantly, is it wrong to want something more?  With time and a bit of introspection, I realized— Aai never said it was wrong to want something. She only asked me to reflect. And that, I believe, was the real wisdom in her words. Desire is not inherently bad. In fact, it’s the fundamental dr...
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A Trillion Thoughts Later: Doubtful VS Critical

18th April, 11:26 PM — my phone buzzes: "JEE Mains Session-2 - RESULT OUT" My first reaction? “Nah, this has to be fake. No way it’s out so soon after the Final Answer Key 2.0 dropped.” But still, my hands are trembling as I type in my details. I try a few times... Invalid Captcha . Ugh. My anxious mind won’t let me wait patiently. I keep trying. Then—boom—the result page opens. Sheer silence. Numbness. Everyone at home is asleep. It’s just me. A single tear slips down my cheek as a trillion thoughts race through my head. I forward the result to my brother with a text: “It’s so weird…” Then I switch off my phone for a couple of minutes. The silence deepens. The numbness seeps in. I turn the phone back on. His reply: “Yeah, it happens. Cutoff toh clear ho gaya. Congrats!”  I’m still numb. This isn’t what I expected. Thoughts just keep coming—endless, chaotic. I react to each one.  "Put on some music... 'Aal Izz Well'... 'Aal Izz Well'..."...
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